In what now feels like ages ago, I wrote A Fanpost about being a newbie her at P&T and asked you guys what I should expect during the play-offs. Latrell chokewell wrote : "I guess you should expect the highest highs, the lowest lows, and definitely expect P&T to break down all of the minutiae as it happens."
Well, the lowest of lows hit me last night.
The Knicks looked lost in their game against the Heat. They were miserable, getting dubious calls, looking absolutely frustrated and helpless. Where were my happy and confident Knicks? They sure weren't there last night.
Waking up this morning and facing the news of Shump's situation was worse. Not even Jeremy Lin's injury made me feel so - NUMB. I wear my heart on a sleeve, you see. I pump my fist when Novak hits a three, I shout at opponents mugging Jeremy (even as I solitarily sit in front of my laptop) and I gasp and groan as much as the audience in Madison Square Garden. Today, I feel numb.
We could point fingers - some were already doing it during the game. But I don't profess to be an expert in offense and defense. I can't tell anybody which fouls those (blasted) refs should or should not have called. I don't have any knowledge of player stats that can give a clue on who can fill the void Shump is leaving.
I am just a fan who loves watching the Knicks play basketball. I am a fan who is utterly devastated. If I, as someone who just stares at a screen and follows the Knicks' exploits online, can feel this much after such a loss, I wonder how our boys are doing.
I don't care about how much they are getting paid. They are the ones who have to go on court on Tuesday. They are the ones at the end of all those pointed fingers.They are human and feel pain as much as we do.
So, where do we go from here?
Don't ask me - I'm still trying to get over the heartbreak.